Friday, July 31, 2009

Well, that was weird

I know it's been a while. Life has been...full I guess would be the correct term. Lately I've been either too busy to update my blog or just feeling a bit melancholy and introverted. Luckily I now have some time on my hands and I am feeling much better and less tired emotionally.

Part of the reason I was feeling so "off" is that I was going through a time of extreme fatigue. It's a long story but I'm pretty sure it had something to do with my hormones going out of whack. I started having night sweats (something I had never experienced before with my other pregnancies) and after about 4 nights of waking up soaked several times a night I got to the point that I could barely sleep and felt very tired during the day. It got so bad that I was bedridden for 3 days and could barely sit up to eat or drink anything. Liquid chlorophyll and electrolyte drink helped.

It was right before that or right after, I can't remember now, that I had a something of a nervous breakdown in a store. I had stopped to buy a snack on my way to school one morning and as I took my money out to pay I noticed that one of my bills had something written on it. In Mongolian it said, "May this money bring you death". I started hyperventilating and crying. Before I knew it I was sobbing in the arms of the elderly storekeeper. I felt like the room was closing in and my legs wouldn't work.

I wasn't upset because I was scared that the money would make me die, but the thought that someone would pass this bill on to me, or maybe even write it and give it to me on purpose just made me so sad. All of a sudden I felt so alone and desperate. Thankfully, my little episode was short lived and I was able to make it home to tell Hetee and eventually smile about it.

So anyway, long story short, I looked up the night sweats online and found out that they were caused by unbalanced hormone levels. I thought back over the week and remembered that I had started taking flax seed oil supplements. I googled them and found out that they're really not safe to take during pregnancy and that they contain phyto-estrogens. I stopped taking them and within 48 hours the night sweats and anxiety subsided. I think the Holy Spirit helped me figure this one out. I thought I was going nuts for a while there. =)

More to come, soon. Lots of things are happening here and I will do my best to update you all on a more regular basis. Please pray for me to get a new computer. Our old one is almost 7 years old and so slow. It's been fixed several times but now it's time to replace it with one that the kids can use for school and I can use for work, etc.

Lots of love!!!